Late night swimming, soaking my warm body into the ice cold freezing water. Albeit it's only for a short 5 mins before the guard called me up, it feels like the problems in my head have disperse away. I've awakened, my head cleared, my emotionals partially gone. Those fucking thoughts aint kicking my ass anymore.

I don't wish to show interest anymore,it's not like I've shown any but I dont see where we're going man. Your ex-gf is still crazy and raving over you, I'm alr tired having a blast with my life, why would i want to fight for something I'm uncertain of?Why do I have to look at only one tree  when there's a forest around me. Say I'm giving up easily or whatever, I just dont want to plunge myself into a supermassive black hole.I'll still hang my hopes out on the line, but please do not let them withered by the sun. As the saying goes, what belongs to you would eventually belongs to you.

I'm in for the kill. Don't regret the decision I make today.