its so true when people say when you're in love, you lose your mind. I think i lose my mind big time. I fell very deeply with a boy. and I was very happy. I see a future in us, I really thought he is the one(tad silly I know) , I want to be with him forever. I wake up loving him more each day.

however, I feel like he does not love me like how I do. but this fact is taking my soul away. His mum does not like us to be together, she hates me, she hated all his girlfriends. So now, he have decided to listen to his parent because he said parent will always be there for him and will never change. This means he will have to give up on me(obviously) but yet he doesnt want to let go but yet he doesnt want to do anything.

I kinda understand why you dont wanna tell your parent about me. because mentioning my name, will make them angry, will disappoint them. so you rather I suffer because parent are more important to you. Or in other words, because I'm not worth it. because maybe you dont see a perpetual future in us and you just dont wanna spoiled your r/s with your parent.I totally understand.

But getting to this epitome of understanding, is really hurting. Because I finally know the truth, that everytime you said you love me, it's just words.

If I were you, if my parent have to stop me from seeing you, I will try to negotiate with them and if that fails, I'm still gonna stick by my decision to be with you. I will destroy everything that disapproves us. Even if I got kicked out of the house, have no more allowance, have no beautiful clothes to wear, have no nice food to eat, lost my parent's trust and respect, I will still stick to my decision. That's how much I love you. I can sacrifice evrything for you , die for you, stay awake for you cause I believe you are worth every single sec of my time and i will do anything to make you happy. Will you do that for me?

I feel really amazed that I could love a person to this extreme, but well, sadly the boy I love do not feel the same way. I dont feel stupid, I dont feel waste of time. I'm still waiting for an answer, of what he's gonna do about me. I'm not hoping for anything. Because I believe if he really loves me, he will fight for me. No. matter .what. There is no such thing as obstacles in love.