I feel stranded,lost,unwanted. I waited for your phone call the whole of last night.. until 3am, until I feel really tired and knocked out. As usual, I was carrying a tinge of hope in me, although your brother had already told me you were sleeping, I was still hoping you would call me which you always would. You said you cant sleep w/o talking to me. Likewise, I feel the same too.
Actually, we stopped talking since ytd's afternoon, didnt we? For what reasons, I've got no fucking idea. I was so god damn worried the whole day, my mind was all about you - if you got into some troubles again with your parent, or you will out for dinner, or prolly your parent kick you out of the house or whatsoever. Ha, those preposterous thoughts. I can only describe myself in one word - stupid.
Yea I really am, now that I know the reason why you were doing that.
Have you really thought about how I feel and not to be selfish for once? I was so apprehensive ytd I couldnt sleep. Even when my eyes were heavy, I fought myself to wake up.This morning, I woke up at 11, like with a jolt to reality. Frantically and happily to open my mails to see if you left anything for me. and what I've recieved, is replies from you that you want to be alone for awhile. and you got to avoid me?
Seriously,what the fuck is your problem?!?
I'm really speechless,Mark Ng. Did I do anything wrong?
I dont want to go through this kind of sadness again. It's overwhelming.I'm not a genius in deciphering your thoughts. How long is your 'awhile'? Your time spent thinking will be the amount of tears I shed. I could be patient if you let me know that you need time to think, rather than to dumped me aside and be evasive, not uttering a word until I had to find out myself that you are avoiding me the next day. Stupid, stupid me. I need to learn to let go. If you really love me, you wont bear to put me in this state, again.
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