School

so what I've passed my lab test today, so many 'problems' are coming our way. Truckloads of projects, exams and my killer attendance rate. It's by far the worst absent record. Some nice friends was like telling me" hey Joey, rmb to come for the next lesson cause the lecturer is nagging" or like" why dont I see you around in school? Dont need to go for lessons?" But I was like thinking "screw yourself, mind your own business."

Crude as it sounds but because even w/o emphasizing it,I know it myself very well, I mean all the attendance shit and stuffs. and it's not like putting more alarm clocks in my room or sleeping early can solve my problems. True enough, it works,but partially.

I dont like my behaviour towards school too but I just cant find the perfect solution to solve it. For eg, piano lessons. My parents want me to learn so badly but have they ever think that I would like it or not? NO. I was young and clueless, so I went for it.When I grew up and have a say eventually, lugging an uninterested attitude to learn something that I dont really fancy was a tormentous task to do. and I suppose this example is related to my school now. I love school but do I like the course? Not really. but somehow every morning when i wake up, I've to drag myself out of bed and motivation comes from saving myself from getting troubles, not because I'm excited to learn about injections or whatever.And after a long period of this cycle, I grew sick and tired of it and mentality tells me to fuck school, just take a mc. 

which is

not good at all. If there's something I like to do, I guess waking up early or sleeping late would not be a problem. The keyword here is lack of motivation. and I shall stop running away anymore. It's time for me to deal with it. I want to graduate with pride and glory, not someone who is blacklisted.

anyway,nuff said. Prolly anyone who read this must be thinking I'm such a rebel (Whatever floats your boat)

From this point onwards,my remedy to cure this "fuck school" disease is to buy more alarm clocks and put  somewhere far from my bed. and to brainwash myself "NURSING RAWKS MY SOCKS!!!" haha YEAAAA -.- zzz im sure of it. whatever it is, one more month to exams and end of the semester. I can pull through this (:

On a happy note, tics to hk have been booked!!!

I'm going to study now, you heard that, yes study! Till then.