This year whizzed by in a much too fast lightning speed, I hardly turned back to look at what's happening.It seems too unreal that this year have passed by so quickly. In fact, i feel like I'm still living in May/June/July, those 3 months i supposed I'm most satisfied with. I havent accomplished anything that claimed importance to me, or prolly I've no clue what's the most important.I lost myself and mind for too long, to the extend I felt empty at times.I'm still looking for the person that could fill the holes in my heart. Lately, it's getting harder and harder to breathe. 

Every day and every time I look at the clock I get sick, that wretched sinking feeling in my stomach. I can't explain why, perhaps knowing just how fast time is slipping and just how little I've done.

My new yr resolution for 08 was 'be happy'. I'm not sure if my wish did come true. But I love the times when I had fun in school, when I had someone I could talked happily to almost everyday, when my parent could understand me. However, also, I lost some friends I dont understand how and why. Perhaps I'm just a minor role in their lives.Perhaps,it's the time and distance. Or perhaps, it's both. To think of that, it's really hurtful.

I miss my friends.

Anyway, to end on a cheerful note, 4 days to 2009 YAY cant wait to see fireworks!

and enna's coming back sooooon (: