Hello November

9days to my birthday...

Town with Abbs and Marque. To cedele to have ice cream but ended up a whole table of drinks. Got some booze, drank outside far east.Met Berwin and Charles for his friend,Jam's birthday at Chips. The world is so bloody small.

Sekret Trip

if you're thinking nice scenery, hordes of people, interesting stuff,dont bother scrolling down. It's just about me and the food. sekret, it was still meant to be.

our first meal at No6
trans 3some?









hahahah my fav pic!
like this too. woohoo



travel to another end of the beach.carefree.

phuket's pasar malam!

candy floss bigger than my head
HAHA not me! I'm not so heavy!

BUNGEEEEEE








I miss riding bike. and everything that we do.Let's go somewhere soon

satellite hearts

Looking so high but feeling so low. so sick of the late nights pulling me down. I'm sending my words to the outer space... can somebody hear me? 

why do you teared today? it breaks my heart even more.

you said...

 you are disappointed

 I hold grudges towards you

 I dont know how to reflect on myself, on my unaccepted behaviour

 it's my friend's fault for coming home late

 Money is not an issue but every sentence you said, you talked about money. How paradox. Money really makes the whole go round.

 There's a serious communication breakdown

All these.. are like the sounds of a brook. 

Everyday I came back home, I hear nothing but harpings. You want me to tell you how's my life.Fine. I told you I'm having a flea market going on at Dec, you said "dont tell me about it. cause I'm not gonna lend you any $." 

I dont even have that intention to  borrow money from you. My skin is not that thick.

Nowadays,I hate coming home.I dont know why I hate this place so much.Prolly that's the reason for going home late? To see you hogging the com, doing reducdant stuffs which I adhore, to see another one submerge into her own world watching dvds. What about me? I feel like I'm trapped in a cage. 

Once in awhile, when you talked to me, honestly, i dont find the things you said interesting. It's so mundane, so useless. I feel so sick talking to you. and then when I dont speak, you accused me for being rude. It's so irritating. You're so irritating.

so all in all, it's MY fault. and it's true. I always do things that make pple feel disappointed

in me. I always reflect on myself. but what about you? Like as though you dont have a part to play.

I've got so so so so so many things I dont like about you. but I cant say. It feels like coil wire tangled in my throat. It's so difficult. 

I dont know how to live with you anymore.I dont hate you. I dont even bear grudges. I dont even know why you said that.

Love is not that beautiful afterall isnt it. 

My little bitter, crushing heart,seems like no one can understand

 

leaving spore in approximately 2 hours time! have not finish packing haha how exciting

booked the hotel a few mins ago. I couldnt be bothered if it's cosy/nice, but I'm having a headache now. and you're sleeping?

so hard to pass time

I'm sitting in front of my computer now,listening to Mew - Comforting sounds, trying to think of something to type to pass time. cause when the clock strikes 3, I can sleep in peace. okay, I'll take back my words. Probably I dont even have the time to take a short good 20mins nap for there's so many programmes on a nice breezy saturday.

Berwin must be sleeping soundly now, so the idea of calling him is definitely not a good option. umm, what can I do?

 

Too tired to bathe, too heavy to get up,I'm filled with so many illegally downloaded depressants. umm..oh! I've got a good news to share! In 2 days time, I'm going phuket! (: I'm so happy, like tripping over licorice laces happy. Like twirling around with rainbowed coloured swans happy.Happiness in a bottle! and on top of it, attachment had officially ended.uh not really, one more day, next saturday. And I swear to myself this time I'll work to 3pm. No more morbidity behaviour like today.Feelings of nervousness escalated as the time ticks by. It's so vexing.

I'm also very very tired I could just close my eyes and die.Like now.and hungry. Like as always. Not nice at all. I'm heading town in a few hours time and I prognosticate time will pass unevenly later, in strange lurches and dragging pulls.Sucks. I need some turbo coffee. or dao huey at least?

zzz (tick...tock...tick..tick) it's still 2pm

Huge cravings for soupy food. Like beef stew at Cedele and promegranate tea.YUMS. Cravings, they are not real. I just want to want them, but I dont need food in my stomach for now or later. Maybe salad. good choice

I cant continue anymore. why is it so hard to pass time urghhh

BBQ @ SELETAR